There will always be a time where someone who'd just love to pull you down with no reasons. There will always be a time where someone will mock you for not being able to fit in to their expectation. This is where society sucks to the core. I'm super tired of all these things happening, however cheerful I may be infront of my friends, deep down I'm not. Almost every single day that I've put on a fake front infront of everybody. Reasons? I don't really know, but it's just those moment of time where your emotions are just running around in your small bubble of space. 

Am I going back to my depression? Am I being too emotional? To be honest I really don't know, the fact that I'm so used to being a "fake" around people shows how I haven't give a single fuck. I used to get offended when people criticized me or how they would just try to pull my self-esteem down, but now I just show them no emotion and be like "oh yeah ok". Ugh I really don't know, I hate this feeling so much that I just want to drown myself. I want to be happy like I used to be, but somehow I know it will never happen. I have no motivation whatsoever and I just don't feel like doing anything about it. 

Liyana.... start thinking about yourself than other people... start making yourself happy... I know you can do it... Just try ..